March 26th, 2009
This is where I want to be. right .now.
I am all caught up in my own head lately. I have been trying to talk myself out of being in this perpetual bad mood.
I cleaned the entire house and washed every stitch of laundry. And that helped for about as long as it lasted with the dog and kids plotting against me.
The weather has been nice and that helped too. But then it rained yesterday….all day long. I want to blame someone else. I want to dodge responsibility. But it’s me. And no one can help me but me.
The bottom line is I am unhappy with myself right now. I have a plan on how to fix it but digging out of the hole I am in is harder than I thought. Especially since I have been the one throwing the dirt in on top of myself.
Don’t get me wrong I haven’t been staying in bed all day or moping around. I have good moments and I am taking care of my family. I even showered on Monday.
Kidding kidding…I have bathed every single day.
I think the weight and responsibility of life just become overwhelming sometimes. Does anyone else feel like you could use a vacation? It’s been too long since my toes were in the sand. What I wouldn’t give to have a week alone with Adam, plentiful sunshine, beach chairs and frozen margaritas. I would miss my kids but we would comeback refreshed and sporting a reddish brown freckly glow.
Ahhh bask in the fantasy….bask in it. Ok stop basking…this is my fantasy! Hey stop looking at Adam’s butt! You too Grandma!
By the way if you left me a comment or emailed me and I haven’t responded I am really sorry….I am WAY behind in my inbox!
I will get out of this funk eventually. In the meantime I am getting back to my beach fantasy. Can’t you just hear Jimmy Buffett in the background?
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Stop looking at Jimmy Buffet’s butt - he’s not that kind of entertainer - SHEESH!
This too shall pass, my love! You better be there on Saturday!!!! I know where you live…..
The pathetic thing is we just WENT to the beach and when we got back this week things were so nuts at work and at home that I feel like I need another week just to recover.
I really get in a genuine mental funk every year between Christmas and March. It stinks.
Sending you some beach mojo stat!
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You’ve bathed every day? Dang, you’re doing better than me
lol
But I hear you, I really do, I’ve been and I am there. I can’t even fantasize about a vacation right now because my brain would start adding up all the costs! (Money woes make it hard to think about such things.) Best I can do is look forward to bedtime and some interrupted computer/TV/movie time.
I think it is the time of year for funks. I have one and I’ve heard others saying the same. (Not to belittle your funk.) Hope it all lightens for you soon!
Have I been looking at Adams butt again??? I’m way too old for that. What ever is wrong with me. What’s a vacation????
A warm beach sounds like a little slice of heaven right now!
*sigh* Just today I was thinking, “GAHHHH-AWWWD I need to be in Hawaii.” Seriously. Like not more than an hour ago.
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time.
Oh, girl. I feel ya! And I’d love to be on that beach with you. I’ve been amazed at how many Moms I’ve read that are feeling this way right now (including me). It must be the slump before spring. I hope…
I’m with you! I even blogged about it…several times!! But I received an amazing gift today that has snapped out of my recent doldrums. A free greenhouse! I spent the whole day setting it up and planning and dreaming. I will hope for something to snap your slump as well!
I will be glad to keep the kids while you and Adam go to the beach. You are always in my prayers. Love you.
Or better yet, let’s hear some Bob Marley. That’s what I’m talkin’ about! And what happened to the fantasy of the two of us running away from home for an extended weekend and going to the beach? No kids, no husbands, no chores. AAAAHHH! I’m totally jealous now. Oh well..
Your grandma is awesome. I love her comments… Sorry about your perpetual bad mood. If it makes you feel any better, reading your blog makes me feel less depressed this time of year. I hope, like so many have said, that it’s just a phase for many of us mommies, and we will all be out of it soon. I wish I could be so honest on my blog…
I so want to be there right now! Away from my kids, just me and my hubby. No toys that make horrible noises, No snotty noses. AHHH just the sun on my face and no laundry
Like many other moms out there, I can SO relate. I can’t tell you how much I’d appreciate just a day away from responsibility!
The world better watch out if all of us moms unite and take a day off…