This post is Part Five of a true story. A story about Adam and I getting pregnant before marriage and how it has made our life together complicated, painful, wonderful and FULL of surprises. A story of how love can grow in even the most unlikely situations. If you haven’t already, you can read Part One here, Part Two here ,Part Three here, and Part Four here.

So there we were…Engaged and Underage.  Well not both of us, I was 20 and Adam was 21.  We were the parents of a toddler and we were about to get married.

And let me just say….I needed some bangs yo!  My forehead is just not meant to be bared!  Especially with what was going on with my eyebrows.

So we were showered with all of the things that we would need to set up a household.  It was so exciting to pick out a china pattern and flatware.  Here are my actual choices.  I still love the patterns 6 years later.  I hope I still love them for 24 more because from my observations people tend to hold onto these things for like 30 years.

Just a little tidbit…before my engagement I didn’t even know what flatware was.  Silverware is silverware is silverware.  Utensils.  Forks and spoons.  Knives even.  But Betty at the Macy’s Bridal department opened my eyes to a whole new world of tableware and kitchen appliances.

I think I was more excited about playing house than I was about the actual wedding.  I know how crazy that must sound but I was an unwed mother and I felt the need to be legitimized.  Of course I loved Adam and I wanted to marry him, but I don’t think I really knew what it meant to be a wife.  I can’t speak for Adam but I think, although he loved me too, he may have felt a little obligated to marry me.  So at the time of our wedding I think we both were just young and ill equipped to fully grasp what we were about to embark upon.

Our wedding was a happy day and we went to Destin on our Honeymoon and Addison went to stay with Adam’s parent’s while we were gone.  It was so hard to say goodbye to our baby, but it was the first time that Adam and I had ever been able to get away by ourselves.

And we had so much fun!  Our honeymoon was WAY too short and 2 days after we came back Adam started a new job ( in addition to playing gigs and delivering pizza at night) and I went back to college.

We jumped right back into real life and everything that comes with it.  We moved out of my parents house and we rented my Aunt Missy’s house while she was living in Texas.

And life was not easy.  Adam worked VERY hard so that I could stay home with Addie on the days I didn’t have classes.  I was a full time student and I was trying to figure out how to be a wife , mother and homemaker.  It was way harder than I thought it would be. Honestly, I wasn’t very good at balancing my responsibilities AT ALL.

I am sitting here trying to think of something funny, but our first year of marriage was less honeymoon and more hard work.  I would be lying if I said it was anything other than that.  I temporarily forgot that God was in control and that all I needed to do was seek Him and I would find peace in that.

I was totally focused on Addison and my schoolwork and so many other things were neglected.  One of those things was the housework.  Laundry was always piled up and the house was usually a cluttered mess.  I wasn’t a very good cook and one night I screwed up beef stroganoff so bad….well let’s just say that my cinnamon and my black pepper were in identical jars and no amount of rinsing or ketchup could help the situation.

One other minor detail I tended to push by the wayside was….my husband.  I was exhausted, anxious and overwhelmed and ,to be completely candid, I wasn’t a very good christian wife at all.  I think I might  stop there for now.   I will tell you all about the stupid mistakes I made and how much I SUCKED at being a wife in Part 6.  Yay!  I know you are all on pins and needles.

I have not always been interested in politics.  And the only reason I started to care about the subject is because I became a parent.  As the years have passed I started to realize that it really does matter.

I am not one to get into rowdy debates.  I love America and I love that one of our greatest freedoms is to vote for who we as individuals support.    My beliefs have become more conservative as I have gotten older, but that does not mean that I am a right wing nut.  I would consider myself more of a conservative independent. But, I do not like to box myself in.

I will admit that I pay WAY too much attention to the media.  I have made it no secret that I love Bill O’Reilly and that I listen to conservative talk radio.  I read all sorts of articles and blogs and I am pretty informed.  I primarily watch Fox news because I have found that they really are “fair and balanced”.  One thing that bothers me about watching Fox…all of the ads are directed at senior citizens.

I mean really?  Just how many commercials for viagra, the scooter store, glucose meters and AARP can a 27 year old woman endure on a hourly basis?  Just last week I seriously received an AARP card in the mail with my name on it.  Yesterday a local audiology clinic sent me an invitation to a free “lunch and learn” so I could learn about hearing aids.  Ok whoa!  Can a girl feel any older?

I feel like I need to just admit that I’m old and go to Walgreens and buy some adult diapers and call it a day.  Because clearly I need to find a supplement card for my medicaid plan and to remember to take my monthly Boniva.

I bought these shoes last night and I LOVE them.

I am just starting to question their practicality.  Should I have bought them in brown?  I also bought a blue shirt with pink pinstripes that I could wear with them.  I thought that maybe they could go with brown or black.  I guess I just need some reassurance that I will actually wear them.  I paid 19.99 for them so I think that’s a pretty good price for a shoe that is only occasionally worn.

Right?

What do ya’ll think of the shoes?

I am not big on speeches, but this one is worth listening to.  I found this on You Tube and I thought it was so funny!

What tha crap?  Read this article and then go have some dinner!  Retch!  That oughta deter one from smoking no?  Thank you Fox News.

What’s going on with me you ask?  Well:

-I have laundry piled up to my ears

-I have been dizzy all day ( is that weird?)

-Addison has a horrible flesh eating skin disease impetigo and the Dr advised that she stay home today.  We have actually had a fun day.

-Adam’s good work insurance doesn’t take affect until Nov 1st and our temporary insurance doesn’t cover $h*t.

-Adam and I are leaving in an hour to go on a date and although I am soooo excited, I am having a fat day have nothing to wear and did I mention I am dizzy yo?

-the kitten has FLEAS!  We have treated him twice with Frontline and I am highly irritated that it hasn’t worked!

-Adam probably would be irritated that I said that last thing about the fleas, but um well it’s my blog.  Just sayin’

-I am so hoping to get a seat at this blogging conference!  I am supah excited about the fact that it’s in Nashville!

-So yeah.  I haven’t had wine all week.  But all in all I have a pretty good attitude about everything.

I hope ya’ll have a fabulous weekend!  oh and….GO DAWGS!

Ok soooo If you don’t live in the Nashville area this video might not be as funny as it is to me. Thank you Martina

Hi peeps.  All 3 of you who read me :)  Sorry for the lack of posting.  I am busy and tired.  The end.  See you soon m’kay?

Here are some pictures that I took for the blog that have just never made it here.   Not because I didn’t have good intentions, but probably because I didn’t follow through.  I NEVER do that.  nope. not me

Yeah....it's just a lemon.

Happy wine rack....happy mommy. Thank you Trader Joes for 2 buck Chuck

Addison's breakfast...I just thought it looked YUM

Blue berries ya'll

Chicken Rice Florentine...sooo good! Leave a comment and I will send you the recipe! You're welcome.

I really don't know why I took this....it's not organized. But it looks even worse right now.

I took this the same day...it actually looks pretty clean. I have a sacred love for this refrigerator.

Mix them and ENJOY! It's a treat I tell you!

For more Wordless Wednesday posts go here

I have kind of enjoyed taking a little bloggy break, but I have really missed writing too.  Adam is getting a new laptop from his new job, but the bad news is that it will be his primary workstation, so I won’t have access to it the way I would like.  I am hoping that we will be able to save up and go and buy a laptop of our very own soon.  Adam seems to think that we can get a good deal, so I am crossing my fingers that we can get one soon because I am not doing such a good job of making time to come upstairs and write.

It’s just not comfy to write up here and I have been very busy actually getting things done in our house.  I hate to admit it, because it might cause Adam to rethink my dire need for a laptop of my very own, but due to my lack of computer convenience I have finished a lot of projects, kept the house clean and the laundry caught up.  At least now that most of my projects are accomplished, I might be able to come upstairs and write more often.  The only problem is that when the kids are up here playing and Addison is talking to me while I am trying to write I get frustrated.

I mean what is UP with them actually needing me to pay attention to them?   Geez kids are so selfish and high maintenance sometimes!  Gah! KIDDING! Sort of.

I guess the dilemma is that I could write when Addison is in school and Alivia is napping, but I am torn between blogging and watching recorded shows from the media center getting the housework finished.

Now that I have had my little blog vacay and I am all caught up around the house, I guess I should catch you up with what’s been goin on round here.

I cleaned out all of our closets and drawers.  ( Exciting for you I know!)

I gathered up all sorts of things to sell ( I am going to spend the money I make on mahself ya’ll)

Adam and I went shopping for a bunch of new work clothes for him, and I bought him new underwear and undershirts.

Adam started his new job.  He really likes it and he has so much more free time because it is only a mile away from our house.  He was commuting 32 miles ( an hour each way) every day to his last job.  So not only does this job pay more, we are saving SO much money on gas.  Not to mention how much our quality of life has increased by being together more.  He took me and baby Livie out to lunch today and it was so nice!  He is also coming home for lunch and it’s been pretty great!  Except that I have to get a lot more done before noon thanks to him.  So not kidding…I used to have a flurry of activity getting things done in the afternoon because I had until 6 pm.  I can’t goof off and play around with the baby all morning.

I bought Addison new socks, panties and undershirts ( because all of a sudden she wants to wear little tank tops under everything…the next thing you know, she’ll be asking for a bra!  Let me just say…Hell To The No.)

Addison started gymnastics.  She was so cute out there doing flips and cartwheels and somersaults.  She was so excited about her trial class that we signed her up that same night and bought her a leotard and little shorts to go over top.  She told me that she wants to go back every day.  I was so proud of my little gymnast!

Alivia is becoming such a little clown.  She has a funny little sense of humor and laughs all the time.  She is also going through some sort of separation/stranger anxiety phase.  As flattering and sweet as it is that she loves me best, it’s also a little exhausting being the only one she wants sometimes.  She has started climbing  too.  It’s making me so nervous although she is pretty coordinated and can get on and off of furniture fairly well.  She is getting so big!  She will be a year old  in one month and 11 days.  Shhhhhh don’t say it out loud!

We spent ALL FLIPPIN day Saturday cleaning the upstairs of our house.  My mom helped me start Addison’s pigsty room and I organized the whole office/playroom too.  I moved furniture and it made the room feel so much bigger.  I threw away SOOOO much crap that Addison would probably have a coronary if she knew about half of it.  I am so ninja mom fast at shoving things in garbage bags and taking them to the goodwill.

Today I loaded up the van and took it all to the kids consignment shop.  I cleaned out my winter clothes and took those to the regular consignment shop and now I officially have NO clothes.  Hopefully I will make some money from the things I sold and I can go shopping.  Now that Addison and Adam have new underwear and socks and undershirts and clothes maybe I can take care of my own wardrobe and underwear drawer soon.

So who wins the prize for the most random all over the place blog post of the day?  Yeah.

That would be me.

Ok, so to try and redeem myself for this sucky post, I will try to write a good Fro’ me to you Thursday post tomorrow.  I am not making any promises, but maybe it will be another installment of The Truth is series.  Maybe!  It just depends on how well Alivia naps, so we’ll see.

Until then, I loves me some you guys!